What The Fuck...........

Do you have a job???

i met someone who at shindig on sat who was talking about you quick.

oi

I wasnt having a go at you with that statement so do one

Wooow. Gone for half hour and this happens!


PM's sound good Idea.

But I wish I could have 3 nights out a week!! I'm lucky to get one! Not that I think it's either good or bad to have three. Personally I don't like anyone else having my boy that don't know him well but I have no one that does. Just my boy and I! Just the way I like it!

Cute little darling though, I would parade her!

Were they saying how ace I am?

yes thanks

empty ur box I dont wanna post my next message publically.

You need to get off the defensive...I AM NOT TAKING THE PISS OUT OF YOU

I was asking out of interest in relation to you being a single mum and havign a job, not having a go

kind of.

he likes fishing and cricket and claimed he was nearly raped in camp david.

Sounds like a right boring bastard

ok you never cleared ur box and I feel someone has to speak up so I'll continue publically

casy I dont know whether you're trying to save face on the board or you've actually convinced yourself of those scenarios but take last week:

global gathering - 3 days of getting twatted
twisted logic on wednesday... probably more drugs
cinema on friday
party on saturday... even more drugs

Tell me where your daughter fitted into any of this... i am wrong to post up on the board so I'm sorry for doing this... but you're not putting your child first... you're escaping ur problems through clubs and drugs.

but your daughter isn't a problem and you can't escape your responsibility.

I've toned this down for a public posting.. please clear your box

this board has gone tits up, i barely even post anymore. at one time their was loads of crack, now theirs just shit threads everywhere, atleast if i ever bump into any of the newbies i'll know what their favourite flavoured ice cream is, or what they like in a sandwich

Are you going to Wax:On on friday mate?

ellies dad has always been in her life and i understand where you are coming from about mot wanting many people to look after you're little boy....there is only 2 people that have ellie, although her dad has her friday night til monday morning. im glad of the break.

you see he even say to me himself, when i was 17, i had my own house. baby and life... i had to get on. i didnt have all these opportuneties in life to go clubbing or what have you. in fact i didnt until sep 02 when i was 18 and a half. thatb was the first time i went out and the last for a very long time.......

my childhood was very hard and i would not like to get into that in detail with people whoi dont know, but very soon im up inn court as a witness to which something happened to me when young which has scarred me for life, maybe thats what made me feel like settling down at 16 and having ellie so young was a good idea... i wanted to show myself that what i experienced would never happen to my own... and it wont.

now although she isnt my real mam, shes brought me up to think i need some time to live a life i never had and ejoy myself. shes sat there with me when ive been too upset to speak properly or to go outside. when me and ellies dad seperated you dont know how i felt...again i felt alone, and useless and vile and unworthy of anything..... but i pulled through for ellie......if it wasnt for her things may have been very different now. i may not have got the chance to say this all.

none of you lot (apart from the obvious friends ) have seen mu weekly day to day routine, the relationship i have with my daughter and generally dont know anything about me.... so you have no room ti critise and this comes up a lot in the board to be honset and i think mst of you know its my weak point but just dont know EAXACTLY how weak.

i suggest for all thoses concerned about my daughters welfare that you should check out the socila services dept for yourselfs and have a look at a real child whos in care and in need of a mam, i have only seen it to well and im afraid that you may change your opinion on me slightly

just got back from dv mate, if i can scrape some cash together ill be out, its always last minute for me anyways

I think it sounds like you've had a horrible life... but I dont think you're being entirely honest with either yourself or with us when it comes to the current situation.

I'd much rather do this by pm's though.

3 days of global gathering?? equals what you may have as 4 weeks worth of hoilday time off. 3 days. if im not worth three days then what am i worth?

cinema on fri?? wow!! i bet you could go to the cinema every night if you want to?? whats wrong with going to see a film?

twisted?

sat dans house.


monday,tuesday,wednesday,thursday,friday....................

think about how much i do then before judging me....

ive never said ellie is a problem in fact shes anything but a problem....

my daughter has all my love and attention off me so i dont see how you can state anything other than that........ joe i do this on a daily basis..... jst because i dont sit in front of the tv watchinng emmerdale farm with a bag of family sized doritos in my kappa tracksit deosnt mean im not a good singlr parent. i dont think you know what it feels like when you sit in every night by yourself thinking about stuff, even when elie is in bed i come on the board and get griefed. tbh i dont know why im justifyig myself to you but i respect you and even though weve been bickering with each other the past couple of adys i was only playing. it seems to me like you aretrying to hurt me and huniliate me in public. which is fine but please dont be annoyed if i dint want to watch.

i now i try my best with ellie and for three years its been a struggle but not once have i seen ellie go without or be unhappy. the only thing ive seen her unhappy about was yesterday when i said she couldnt dye her hair

so to you i may seem totaly incapable to you but i know im a bad mam when i dont hear my babys voice saying i love you or im starving for a cuddle...even though shes sitting on my knee....

quality

to be fair joe you dont know my life, past or present. not many people off here do realise what has happened to me.

but why would i want you to?? id like to think you all think of me as a fun person to be around...not tip toe around and pity

joe i know you state your poinions in that sense you are like me and i think its great. im sorry if ive been going a bit mental and lengthly on this but it seems you have discoveredd my weak point almost straight away and o congratulate you on that one as its usually so hard to do as im so hard faced.