What do you do .....

I only talk about it here because I cannot talk about with any of my friends. The one person I could, wont. And if I dont get it out somewhere I'll end up bottling it up for another X amount of years

I know that chick. It just seems like all these threads are going round in circles

Such as my life :cry2:

cheer up hanna pet, a used to get really bad depresion all the time but now i could'nt even if a tried. i don't know your situation
but moping around feeling sorry for ya sell just does'nt help any
a mean theres loads a girls out there would love to be you
your a bonny lass and your on the road to becoming a sucsessfull dj, your out going and very talkitive from what a can see
you better put a smile on that face of your's or al tan ya arse if a eva meet you (and no im not trying to chat u up i have a beutifull girl and she's sitting here with me now) just don't like to see people upset and depressed as i should know it's not very nice

Im not moping about out of choice. I was out lastnight, Ive been out today and Im out again tonight ... its not as though I dont try to be normal. As much as Id love to lock myself away and never be seen again, Im not doing that. But the feelings of being at rock bottom are still there. Ive just been and bought some new crystals to help try and make me better (Im wiccan so Im into all that stuff ......) some Lapis Lazuil to help with anxiety, restlessness, insomnia, shyness and to give protection. And some Black Tourmaline which strenghtens the body and spirit. It powerfully sheilds against dark energies, especially for sensitive people and neutralizes fears and resentments.

When people say about DJing etc and how loads of people would love to be in my position, I just feel really guilty for being like I am. I should be happy, but Im not.

never fell guilty for thing's you have achived in your life it's a bounus beleive me, i used to blank me door even to very good mates as i used to be depresed all the time and could 'nt be bothered to speak to them, i used to blame drug abuse which is partlly to blame but i just seemed to snap out of it one day fuck knows how it just happened and this was even when i was still taking drug's mainly e and coke when i used to go out clubbing
i used to think that life should be like this all the time going out having fun with all my mates and this just was'nt the case and this used to sicken me. i think phyisical exercise(ie the gym ,swimming is the best pick me up on the planet) give it a go u might supprise ya self hope you find ya feet and every thing turn's out fine for you pet

I cant help but feel guilty when people say 'oh but your djing, this that n the other' cuz as Im not well happy I think that others think I dont appreciate it ... which of course isnt true.

I used to do loads of exercise ... when I ran a yard ... 7-7 everyday doing loads of physical work, mucking out 15 stables, lifting zillions of hay and straw bails, excersising ten or so horses a day etc etc ........ and I was still depressed then I went swimming recently but was still stuck inside my head just as much as I would be sat here on the computer.

I feel like a lost cause.

hanna think of all the positive thing's in your life what you have achived instead of having negative thought's running through your mind all the time i know it's easy to say but just try
a mean your only 20 year old you should be happy as larry
at this age any way a thought you girls just done a bit shopping
for some shoes for a pick me up but if ya that sick youll be buying some shoes youll be doing russell hobbs outa business
ive noticed most people on here taking the piss cause your feeling down which is rather childish take no notice of them
wankers hold ya head up and rise above it, sorry a know it takes age's for me to post but that might have somthing to do with me being a shit typest

Shoes ..... if only the answers to my problem was that simple!!! Ive about 40 pairs and naffink

well iv'e seen your out on the town tonight so you have yourself a good time and take care your mates should chear you up,
ya fucka last time a was out was janurary for me birthday
and belive me i used to be out every weekend without fail
so me not going out for this long is starting to get to me
ive got decks and love the music i spin although i don't play out
hopefully i will one day the dreams still there and im 26
me mates have all had bairns and say i wan't to grow up
but i don't want kid's yet and the sad thing is i have much more sence and muturity to them enjoy ya self tonight ill speak to you soon

It's not a spectator sport either

I fail to see why are you making the effort to spectate at all considering Im on your ignore list.

thats right hanna rise above it all pet

:angel:

At least Im strong enough to admit all my problems and downfalls. Rather than sit here and belittle people I dont know to better myself.

well said

To be honest, some of the fucking self pity in this fucking thread is really fucking me off.

I've tried to kill myself twice but I got over it. I'm fucking sure you can too.

That's a lot of fucking!

j/k aside. Sorry to hear that m8. Hope ur all ok now. One of my m8's who's distanced himself from everyone in the past couple of years tried to kill himself not long ago.

Sorry, I got carried away!

Only twice? Good for you I cant even remember the amount of times Ive been suicidal. Maybe you should learn about manic depression before calling it self pity