Cheer up hannahwild

Its more annoying than my dysfunctional posts

I love it does that make me a bad person

I am too.....and I reakon Mister Xanda will be as well (unless he's lucky!!) so don't think you're alone.

(not saying we're with you as that would be creepy)

Stop worrying about meeting a boy too, trust me it happens unexpectedly and I defo think my guy is some kind of guardian who was put in my life at the right time, he's been my rock in this time of total dispair unluckily for him. I just fell for him on sight and I never do that!!!

I felt for ages no one would ever like me but i've finally got some one (unless he's pretending..then there'd be trouble!)

I liked it when I was 15 and used to go to Hardcore Heaven Mc Storm - nooooooooooooooooobhead

It kills me though. I dont want DJing and all that bollox, the only thing I want is to make up for all the cuddles and love that Ive never had in my life.

fuck it the boards being gay I'm going to bed

Innit! It took me ages to get that post out :evil:

its ok for me

alex il listen to some happy hardcore wif ya!

i fink that you should find something to put all your attention and energy into. if you enjoy something concerntrate on that.

i was done in the other day so i cut my friends lawn and went round the edge with scissors so it was really really really straight! quite sad really but it made me feel better!

That always always cheers me up

I raved to it in his bedroom

Im aware that might sound a bit dodgy...

i does til i actually think of how much ive just eaten then i get all upset again

go on jess!!!

loving that thought! teeeheee!!

jess we need a big "rave" soon like

Yeah I know

totally man! you playing out this weekend?

I can reflect that mood - life can be good but at the same time the things we seem to need are just out of reach. On that tip, one song always come to mind which describes the feeling down to a T.

To Quote Trent Reznor...

i still recall the taste of my tears.
echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore.

in this place it seems like such a shame.
though it all looks different now,i know it's still the same
everywhere i look you're all i see.
just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be.

come on tell me.

make this all go away.
you make this all go away.
i'm down to just to thing.
and i'm starting to scare myself.
make this all go away.
you make this all go way.

i just want something...
i just want something.. i can never have..

you know what, when i spilt up with andy i was totally devistated. i thought id lost everything, the one person apart from ellie that i loved, he was everything to me and i thought i couldn't breathe without him being next to me. i used to have him there by my side all day everyday so when he wasnt there anyomre i found it really hard. especially when ellie asked for him too. but homestly hannah it does get better. it takes a long time and i went without cuddles for ages. not for there being a total lack of them but i also wouldn't let anyone get close enough to give me them....... on occasions not even when he tried again. he hurt me sooo much and i thought i wouldn't ever feel better but i do. it took a while but you'l get there i the end. you just need to concerntrate on getting better hun. if you want to it'l happen